I'm so happy

Am I turning over a new leaf?
Or burning the candle at both ends?

I don't know, But make it stop.
FUCK!






This world is going to kill us.

God's Laughing...

I drink until I can't get drunk
I've done drugs so I can love.
This was not in the script!

I realised something tonight...

As much as I always take up way to many commitments,
many of which I cannot do physically. And it's my body that takes the bullet generally.
AND i complain like a motherfucker! I wouldn't change it for the world!
I enjoy working as hard as I possibly can for no money (mostly haha)
in the hope that I can make a life for myself that i will actually enjoy.

Sometimes I question why I do it?
I could just go home every night after work and sit around watching TV like i should do.
but for some reason I can never do that.

Hmm i dunno, I'm sure you'll hear me complaining again soon,
but this shit makes me appreciate the finer things in life,
and I would not be happy any other way.
for as long as i have this lifestyle and some beautiful people in my life,
I am happy.

<3

P.S. This weekends show at Oxford Arts Factory is going
to be a show NOT TO BE MISSED, seriously, be there! OKAY!?

I'm an artist...

This is me in a nut shell.

Cliche 'angry at the world' blog #1

I've come to the conclusion that ageing is a terrible thing and im not talking about the 'top 100 ways to stay thin and avoid wrinkles' ageing, more the 7 year olds progressing into a fully fledged 20 year old,

It is rare to find a person who makes it through this world through their teenage years and doesn't become some sordid, angry and hatefilled human being. We laugh this off and just say 'oh well, that's life!'

I was recently reading up on the scramblings of a certain young artist, (who will remain unamed)
who once created works that were optimistic, beautiful and made me think there was hope.

Now, however, at the age of only 18 her works have become angry,
upset, heart broken, apathetic and discontent with the world.

i know this is kinda a over visited topic, and very cliche for someone who dresses like me, (haha) BUT, how can any of us truely say we are happy?

Why do we drink?
Why do we smoke?
Why do we take drugs?
Why do we watch movies?
Why do we buy magazines?
Why do we eat expensive food?

Simply to treat our own social insecurities!
this is bullshit!

Some people do all of the above intentionally in a form of escapism (myself included sorry), others do it obvlivious to the fact that you are just numbing the pain... and yes, this does sound very depressing and angsty and cliche but i do think it is pathetic the way we do this...

well this is kinda just a useless blog, but after sitting at work procrastinating listening to aforementioned artist,
i found myself needing to write something.

and again why do i write? hmm...

but yeh on a happy note i bought me a Holga off ebay last night :D,
and a whole bunch of expired film and a 35mm converter,
and i'm heaps excited!
cause i'm proper lame,

and on another note, 2010 wow heaps cool,
however i did have the best NYE ever, (despite the night summing up in me walking the streets of Ermington with a baseball bat haha, fail!)

<33

My life is complete!

She reads my blogs!

I have problems

Dis is my fam fam

When we go to da beach, we go in stylez

Glooms

Morgz n mah sis... aka fam fam

Yeh so for some reason im into shitty under contrastyyy scene fotoz atm,
but oh well, it's also kinda a good way to make a shit photo look semi-cool
(hence why all tha indie kids have Holgas, or why arty bands use lo-fi, It's kinda like polishing a turd... hahaha but that being said i like holga's and lo-fi recordings..)

anyways, it's xmas soon,
so hopefully i get paid this week!!
if you all prey that i get paid tonight, ill shout you all a dollar if i do!

xx